Choosing Hands

Well I'm thinking about putting up a music page eventually...something that I could use to put out some of the songs that the Lord has given me. I'm not quite sure if it will happen though, I just can't seem to make up my mind on it at the moment.

On the one hand, it would be wonderful to post some songs that I so much want to share with people in the hopes that God will take them and use them to bless someone. That's what they're intended to do...speak. Speak to hearts about different things that I have gone through, what others may be going through around me, or of what someone may go through in the future in some part of the world. There are many different ways a song can speak to you. That's what makes it personal.

But on the other hand...these handful of songs that I have are definitely not perfect. And though they are songs that are meant to be shared, they are also personal to me in a way that makes me feel guarded in releasing them to be harshly criticized. We all deal with criticism everyday, whether it's from others or from ourselves, but I guess I'm still uncertain of whether I want to face more of it right now. I just don't know.

Ofcourse, it's not going to scar me for life if someone says that I stink or can't play my guitar or whatever. But I'm still mulling it over in my head about what would be the best decision....probably sounds like a silly thing to be spending perfectly good time mulling over in your head, but I won't deny the fact that I have silly moments...quite frequently...especially in the presence of my family, where it's magnified by 100. Hey, it's inherited.

So...it will all come down to whether I feel like this is what the Lord wants me to do, and then I will face the risk of complete shredderous criticism of allowing people to hear them. Or I will keep them on the back burner for a bit longer and wait for God's perfect timing in making me more ready to do it later. We shall soon see which of the two it is..

And shredderous is definitely a word. I'm sure it'll catch on when the urban dictionary picks it up, if they haven't already;) Though whenever I hear the word 'shred' used at all, the old Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles come to mind. Yes, I know what you're thinking...a lot of things whirl around in my mind. That's why I call it Wonderland, people. Making sense of it has become quite an adventure and one test after another in following the voice of the Lord.

Leonardo was definitely cooler because of the double swords...but I have to admit that Michelangelo (pardon my spelling if incorrect) was way more amusing. And brave. Who else would dare to talk like a surfer and say 'cowabungu' while fighting ninja foot soldiers and an evil foe dressed in metal? Yeah, I think that's pretty bold.