True Bloom

There's a saying that some people are 'late bloomers.' What does that mean exactly? Is it to describe the fact that someone is taking a while to get themselves together? Or they have potential, but they're slow to realize it? Or maybe it's just a parent's way of sugarcoating the reality that their kid is a freak and won't find it out until they enter the mid-30's. I really don't know for sure what the true meaning of it is, to tell the truth. I've always thought it meant something good, so hopefully my assumptions are correct:) But the reason I hope so much that I'm right in thinking that way is because sometimes I feel very much like a late bloomer. Blooming into what, I don't know. But whatever it is, it's late.

I see many people that I grew up with in school and it feels weird to see them older. And though they're obviously the same people that I knew and easily recognizable, there's an obvious difference. Age. It's not a bad thing at all, but it is something you can usually see I think. I guess not in everybody, but in most you can tell that they've grown up and started their own families. Aging is just a part of life....but what if you feel like you're almost stuck in a time warp? Yeah, that's weird.

But it's not even solely based on the aging process really...it's also the feeling that you haven't accomplished what you set out to do yet. Knowing you have this purpose and mission to do something, and yet you're still not ready to do it. It can get frustrating at times because you want so much to begin a new season of your life but you have no way of getting to that place at the moment.

I know I've described it to people before, but it really does feel like I'm hovering in this place between the earth and sky. I can see the reality of my life underneath my feet, but I can also see the promise of what God has planned for me way above my head. And even though that promise is something I can see and view to be right there for me...it's still too far to reach. So then there's a balance of living in reality and doing the everyday tasks that can really bore you enough to keel over while you push the grocery cart through Walmart, while you also don't allow yourself to forget what you know is in your future. That there is going to be something more to your life than this.

So that is where I am at right now, floating around in the Wait Zone. It can be pretty hard sometimes up there, but I'm trying to learn all the things that God is teaching me at this time so I can be ready for the things to come.

I don't know what I'm late in blooming in exactly....but I hope to find out soon:)